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the tiniest momment in your life can have major impacts!!!!
my cellphone got confiscated i wish i can smile.

GoD!!!!

If God had a name, what would it be
And would you call it to his face
If you were faced with him in all his glory
What would you ask if you had just one question
And yeah yeah God is great yeah yeah God is good
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home
If God had a face what would it look like
And would you want to see
If seeing meant that you would have to believe
In things like heaven and in jesus and the saints and all the prophets
And yeah yeah god is great yeah yeah god is good
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home
He's trying to make his way home
Back up to heaven all alone
Nobody calling on the phone
Except for the pope maybe in rome
And yeah yeah God is great yeah yeah God is good
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
What if god was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make his way home
Just trying to make his way home
Like a holy rolling stone
Back up to heaven all alone
Just trying to make his way home
Nobody calling on the phone
Except for the pope maybe in rome

Happiness!!!

there is so much happiness when you make others happy!!
i played my tennis finals today...it was a clean sweep for my team.
but i was playin against one of my very close pals...score was 5-0, and she didn wish to play any further.
didn like to see her so sad!!...so i let her come till 5-5, but then i was overconfident i guess...lost out in the tie breaker 5-7.
but am happy...i was the reason for someone being happy...i know i got unfair towards my team mate..but one has to let go off somethings!!
n my gulab jamuns were good..he liked em!!
what more can i ask for??

my valentine

Today is Valentines Day....sounds like fun for everyone...doesn it???
well i jus relished a softy...n am down here to write what i did today....pretty borin it was...except tht i went down to play tennis in the evenin! My game s impoved a lot...cheers for me!!!
i made gulab jamuns for my ex...have sent them through a friend...we haven even wished each other...hope he ll appreciate n not get offended.
he doesn give a damn about me...n i don give up here. i ve bcum spineless..is what ppl say...all my life ppl have been wooing me..its my turn this time...i cant help it..i love him too much i guess...givin in a lot n tryin not to expect...ppl temme not to be a doormat..coz they think he doesn deserve me...but am i good enuf to deserve somebody better i dunno??/ still findin out...workin on my weaknesses but sometimes i feel like tearin myself apart ....bcum very restless...tryim hard to work on PATIENCE....yes thats key word for me
haven wished my good pal too...was thinkin he would do...i gotta let go of my ego for others too..
i ll give him a call n wish him...saw him with his gal today..n we jus waved n walked past...
the scene was so diff 2 months...things change with time i guess...n we gotta learn to take changes well...oe person i was so dependent on jus dissappeared
god!!! am gonna STOP CRIBBIN

there were nice things too.....camphor gave me a chocolate
thanks a ton!!!
a lot of ppl atleast cared to wish....aesa babe i love you too...hope u havin fun with ansh today
n i played well tht completes it alll....hopefully somethin later in the night won get screwed up by me!!!

the ist one

this is a new begining for me....bloggin from scratch. don want ppl who know me to read it coz they cant shutup about it and leave me alone.but i confided it to camphor. i trust her to the core.jus told her about it over lunch n probably she ll be readin it tonight. you asked me why capsid??? capsid cause the name appealed to me so did its meanin....although spelt caspid. caspid the PROTECTIVE LAYER of virus. i seem to be buildin up one, dunno what affects its gonna have on me..hopefully positive!! its not a shell....but a coverin. don wanna be a puppet anymore. i keep sayin but i don follow it.
yesterday i got two of my papers, bad marks. although i cleared them ...it wasn worth all the effort i had put in. so i decided over lunch i will stop sports for a while, when i said this to a close freind of mine, she snapped back "its your life do what you want to"...minor statement but major consequences..i got deppressed and sad...cried like i always do.
i jus cudn stop them (my tears) .i felt miserable and alone.past few months and i hv lost every single person i took time to get close to...like the snap of a finger they all dissapeared...i feel alone ...very alone. confided to my mum she says be your own best friend...i m tryin but failin miserably..21 yrs of my life i was like this,difficult to change in a day. but not givin up either. whats troublin me is why cant i get stable n have a good grip over my life...what the hell!! am i doin. its all so crazy
i feel so restless so confused..stranded somewhere in the dark...lost my path,am this wonderer on the road of life ...treadin in a direction i do not know. lookin out desperately for a destination to go to...all i can say to comfort myself is ...girl plz have some PATIENCE.

FeEl....this is wat i ...

Come and hold my hand
I want to contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I’ve been given
I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don’t understand
I just want to feel real love
In the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
I don’t want to die
But I ain’t keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I’m preparing to leave her
I scare myself to death
That’s why I keep on running
Before I've arrived
I can see myself coming
I just want to feel real love
In the home that I live in
There’s a hole in my soul
Can’t you see it in my face
Of real disgrace
I need to feel real love
And a life ever afterI feel like givin' up
I just want to feel real love
In the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running through my veins
Going to waste
I just want to feel real love
In a life ever after
There’s a hole in my soul
Can’t you see it in my face
It’s a real disgrace
Come and hold my hand
I want to contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I’ve been given
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand