There are 2 people in my life who deserve a section of my life. they are not my mentors or guide but friends
who changed the way i looked at things!!last year my life had gone to a point where i failed to see anything nice and happy. It looked like
the entire world was comin down on me. lets not say looked like...i pictured it all that way. The unwanted way...which led me to a never ending pit of depression, a caustic tongue towards my closest people and a cocoon that i had built around myself from seeing anything nice and beautiful. All that my eyes wanted to see was the darkness. an intense pessimism growing within me. It was growin so fast..it was scaring me. I thought i would never again think of happy things, never again would i enjoy smiling or laugh my heart out. and now when i come to think of myself that way i am so disgusted.
There were a lot of well wishers, lets say ppl who wud think they know me well enuf...who understood me...felt my pain..but their advices got me nowhere but to a more confused and disturbed me. They wanted to see me good again..but their words were not healing me...instead doing a greater damage...making me feel ..am the weird one.
but there was Medha she made a difference. she saw thru me. sometimes i felt she knew exactly what was going on in my head and she felt the pain thru me. she gave me strength to sail thru it all. Everytime something felt wrong she wud make it feel perfect and right. she would make me see the ray of light which i had been shutting myself from. She made me see how beautiful life can get; no matter how much people ruin it for you. you win not let them win.she has helped me emerge as a person who finally learnt to see the beauty of life!! to take things lite and enjoi them. to make no room for my worries but for all the fragrance that shall linger for the rest of my life. Then the other person i am talkin about is JC. I ve never met him....one perfect stranger to me..yet he has had a major impact on the new person i m today. Sounds weird doesn it..but ppl connect ...they connect on a level....where one mind has a key to the other. A very sound guy, his optimism ...it outshone the pessimism i reflected. Although confused himself...he had a vision thru which i m still learnin to see life in a way i never saw before...may be i already know wat all he puts forward to me...but to realize it ..to see it..he makes me see. i know i shudn depend ...but am learnin .The taste of independence is what i am enjoyin now...if ppl walk away from me..i can smile n forget abt it...may be i m not that great yet, to forgive you....there i talk unnnecessarily again...comin back to jc...sometimes i get intimidated...he scolds me...it pierces me bad at times..but when has truth ever tasted sweet.i am still learning...learning never stops...
