I love advertisin for Colgate!!

lol!!...i say tht cuz m laughin..smilin havin fun!!

the spicy funfilled life is back..n in a short span of three days!!

started out with the midnight birthday celbrations of one of the girls here....man we made a mess out of her...n there was this guitar n mouth organ among us...tunes were jus floatin n we caught them to make our momments more beautiful...went on till 3.

saturday!! k was leavin i was upset...but then dinner at a beach...oh amazin..live music playin..the bar was the most fascinating thing there....under a rock..a huge rock!!! i explored the peaceful..uninhabited places in goa tht nite...bob marley addin in the effect..i got back at one...

m finnaly gettin used to a no deadline hostel..he he..

sunday!! visited the fort...dch fort...beautiful sunset pictures comin up soon..n vagatour..beautiful..i loved my solitude there..

gOa..The way I seE iT

view from the jetty..

sunset at jetty..

The IRONY of my life.

Can u beat that!!...I am in GOA for 6 months!!

sounds excitin doesn it....but the sad part is i am not!!

i m such a god damn ungrateful female!!

huh!!

two days back i loved this place!!...i wanted to live here..settle down in one of those beautiful cottage houses. peaceful the state is, n its aesthetic value i m sure u ve alrealy heard volumes about it.

sunday was an awesome day!! thanks to royce!! i walked almost the entire panjim city...went thru the vegetable market,clicked snaps (ppl thot i came to india for the first time lol!), learnt all the possible short cuts n i shopped like crazy..bought anythin tht i saw n liked..it was like unleashin a female who hasn shopped or seen beautiful things to buy. i m so ashamed of myself for behavin tht way. calangut n candolin beaches are must visit beaches here. excellent beauty...nice sandy beaches, nice restaurants, good lookin ppl n water sports!! what else do u need..booze is available cheap for those who enjoy it....i love this place!!

but i hate the state my life is in..four days at nio and i m feelin so bad ...sad, depressed n miserable. (i never run short of adjectives here do i??)

I mean i like my life to be organised. i like to plan it n know where exactly am i going...what exactly am i to do...here i m given work but i still feel lost n lonely!! nobody's been rude to me here but no one's here to care.I miss my life back at VIT now...wat a two faced bitch i m ..i cribbed abt it so much when i was there...n now i hate it here..human nature...never be happy with what u have....actually if i get the same ppl from VIT here..i think my life will rock!! it will be the best time of my life!! i miss all of them...fortunately i met ppl like them n unfortuately i met them in my final year!!

enough of cribbin i guess!!

i have 2 great things to look forward to...AXI is comin yippeee....i haven seen her in a long time...i want her to come soon...n Alu is comin too..although she is comin with her folks i ll get to meet her..can't wait!! they are the only hope of mine to survive this month in goa!! after all what is life without friends!!

hope...

Everything happens for a reason.

i have 2 questions here when i think of this sentence.

1. Do these things happen because they are meant to?? (DESTINY, FATE???) what is it??

2. Do these things happen because of our actions?? we direct everythin that we do don we??

My life is not an ordinary life u know....its so full of events somethin or the other keeps happening.

there are happy momments...hillarious momments...naughty......crazy.....wackiest of momments n they make me smile at thought of them.
and there are BAD ...UGLY....momments which keep reccuring in my life...diff ppl....n they make me THINK...

Its a very common word in my dictionary...i never seem to get rid of it, however hard i try. somethin happens irrespective of good or bad ...i THINK....think like..my world of imagination knows no bounds..its free of all rules.....it jus goes the way it wants to...and u know what happens ultimately....the PESSIMISM within me grows!!...i cant help it...i try real hard n i ll still try to think optimisticly..but my life, like i said eventful life has so many things happening at the same time tht i never can. I try built my castle of happiness, it never lasts long....it disintegrates soon enough to let the bloody depression..the bloody sad,dark things to creep back into my life n leave me feeling horrible..alone n sick!!

and thts wats happenin again ..m at home am suppose to feel good...my arse i do..i hate it more than being alone.

my parents ..my happiness means nothin to them...how much more lucky could i get. n this person who came into my life...huh..i m no good newhere.....writin today is not helpin..its jus makin me realise the bitter truths of life...
i m sad ..unwanted....i dun think i deserve to live so unhappy!! world is meant for happy souls!

my hope jus went poof!! vanished into thin air!!