WateR

Water, one of the ruling elements. When i hear the word ...i think of the colour blue, calmness, serene, pure.

Deepa mehta made a movie called it 'WateR' . I had heard about it cuz it was banned!!. the curiosity n want to watch sumthin that is forbidden is more. I jus knew the cast, n tht it was to do with widows.

I got my hands on tht movie today. it leaves me in a weird state of mind. A very disturbed and restless feeling. how could such attrocities be carried out. Absolutely impractical an approach for what we hindus should feel ashamed of.

A girl aged 7, gets married to a man on his death bed. she doesn understand what a marriage is. her age is to play n not be with a guy fit to be her father. when her father comes n asks her..' beti tumhari shaadi hui thi yaad hai na'. the lil girl chuhiya...replies 'nahi baba'. the next momment u see her at the banks of river ganges...n her dad says "tum vidhwa ho gayi ho" she asks "woh kya hota hai". it jus sends shiver thru u. Imagine urself there god!! it gives me goosebumps.

deepa mehta at most places brings out the bitter truths abt our hindu customs thru the innocent chuhiya. it leaves u with tears....there are places when i too feel like the inquisitive chuhiya where she asks "vidhwa aadmi kahan hai".

why has our society been this way. It s a very contradicting situation cuz the hindu religion i think is the only religion which ...prays to women goddesses and respects the mother, the sister. still things like these have crept in n are still continuin at remote villages. the act of prostitution is looked down upon...but its existence is there becuz Men want it...n women are forced under circumstances to indulge in it. i think there will be very few women who are into the profession willingly. why aren men who are equally involved in the act looked down upon...why are they so proud to keep it alive ...if they don want it..it stops to a great extent i think....why are women so vulnerable in the hands of men....we lose it all n they never do...may be they never will.

when will the society change ...n stop makin sex a taboo...when will the young girls of india definately have a bright future. there was this article recently...female foetuses being disposed into wells in punjab.....education has done no good...the dowry system still prevails...india has this disease which will never get cured i think!!!

Re-kindle.....

It came as a suprise to me, when balaji anna came and told me i have to leave for SRMC-Sri Ramachandra Medical Coll -Chennai, the next day to play Tennis. I had been playin tennis for the past few months, but am still not tht good to play professional tennis. However having a good partner like Alekhya, i thought we might stand a chance so i left.

first match Ethiraj coll...its a woman's coll in chennai, known for its gorgeous & talented girls.
But their tennis team as i had seen in the last tournament werent too good. I was overconfident , thinking ..it would be easy to sail through.

That was my first mistake!! i almost lost the match. I lost my cool...hit all my shots out. the hot sun at 2:oo pm was makin it worse.
score was 6-2...she reaches 8 i loose the match. thats when my entire Basketball team came down to cheer for me...i caught up ...7-3....and then i reached 7-7...tie breaker 1-6 i thought i lost n walked out...the ref called me back sayin i gotta play one more point.

i went back...i was tired to the limit..have never played in the hot sun!!
everybody's cheerin "c'mon hazarika fight u cant let that point go away, u have to win" .
the crowd cheerin so hard for me...i had hope. i fought hard ...point by point i came up..frustratin my opponent. i won it.

there were cheers!!! oh it was amazin!!...after years did i taste victory tht way. i ran straight in to the arms of the first person i met outside court. oh it was great...cant express it better. and it was more fun to hear ppl praise u again n again for ur determination n will power.

It was years ago that i had played that way or done anythin as a matter of fact, i was takin everythin too easy n jus livin on. didn try at all to make anythin better...all tht i did was crib!!

that trip changed a lot...i am back at enjoyin badminton n tennis again..have spend the past two evenings playin with good sportsmen. i wanna win, i wanna excel...the desire to win returns.

i even wrote my sim CAT more seriously today...hopefully i ll master quant...i am tryin won give up.

the only thing tht bothers me here is ...
why do i always need some pushin.
why do i constantly need someone to tell me what to do
why don i know what to do..what do i want...
all this churns a feeling , which makes me restless n i hate it...
i guess with time i ll know...

rite now am jus gonna smile n be happy tht there are ppl who care ....n i have got back my spark!!!
i got to keep it comin!!!